``Tears Don't Fall~ Diary of Noelle

[*~Noelle Marie Stryder]

This Diary belongs to:

~Noelle Stryder~

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[*~Noelle Marie Stryder]

January, 2033

Dear Diary;

Lately a lot of things have been changing. I feel like i'm not paying close enough attention to anything anymore. That Christmas party was the strangest. I remember this infected male-- his name was Nicolii. He seemed to have some sort of attraction to me-- maybe some interest. He even volenterred to protect me and Cody for the night. So strange....

It doesn't make sence.

In some ways, I guess I'm saying that I feel an attraction to him as well. Do Infected have the ability to do that? Is Nicolii a host? I thought they could only take ones body over...

And Cody...

I'm so worried about him. Lately his dreams have been getting worse-- and he sleep talks alot. Just last night when i was making dinner-- Cody was alseep on the couch. he was mumbling something about Nicolii, and that I was killed. Cody also said he'd never forgive Nicolii.

Now in our recent past events of life since Cody was 7 hes told me all of his dreams. Strangly enough-- the message behind them always seemed to happen. Like magic. The images Cody explained to me never actually happened-- but the total message was what was needed to be paied attention to.

Do this mean Nicolii is going to kill me?
Is something going to happen between Nicolii and myself?
What about Rey?

I'd met Rey the other night in China. He's the first human I've met in two years....
Seems very smart but he's just as stubborn as me.
Go figure.

But I remembered the look on Cody's face when he saw Rey hold that knife to my neck. It was like he knew it was going to happen. The gun Cody held-- I never told him where it way. Much less how to take it off the safty. Plus it's not like Cody to go through my things. Did he see this coming?

I wonder.......

Oh, and let me make a scientific note:

Today I was caught into a trap made by two infected. Something very simular to what i'd done to capture one of them myself... It appears that the Infected still have a humanlike train of thought. Unlike the first few months of their existence where they were completely blood thirsty and brainless. It seems they are... developing again?

And... I need to keep an eye on Cody. I fear there is something I'm missing....
Something that is very important......

[*~Noelle Marie Stryder]

January 2033

Dear Diary;

I think it's pretty strange how I'm daydreaming all day. Usually I'm very alert... and protective. But because of me, Cody's life could of ended up on a one way trip to death.

What happened was... well... I was getting food-- ya know the usual for me. Well, some how I got lost in the dark forest that surrounded the Infected's Hideout. I fell into a trap they set up for the larder wild life in the woods... the thing stabbed me in place so I wouldn't escape.

Yet, Nicolii just happened to be near-- and saved me.

I'm not sure why he did it exactly. But I've very grateful. I just want to know why I can't stop thinking about him-- or why it hurt me so much when he covered his nose and his mouth and walked away from me. I know he was keeping me goal to keep Cody alive in mind but.... at the moment I didn't care.

I loved how he held me.
Took me to safty...
Kept in mind that he couldn't kill me... yet still stayed by my side...

Jesus, am I getting feelings for an Infected?
Cody's going to kill me!

Expically since he really likes Rey.

Did I tell you what Cody said at Dinner?

We were having meatballs and out of nowhere, he tells Cody that he thinks me and Rey should get together-- since Zeke isn't that figure for me anymore. Basically saying that I need love in my life....

This is not going to be pretty.

[*~Noelle Marie Stryder]

February 2033

Dear Diary;

I don't know why but I figured I'd leave in a section of all the pictures I have... Maybe if I die someone will find these and make some kind of use to them...



This is me and my best friend Amanda. She was with me and my brother for 4 months before she got killed in a rave. I still miss her alot... we were the only friends that made it out of Butterfly and now she's gone...


That's a picture Zeke took of me on our first official date after finally (and officailly) going out. His excuse for taking this was that "the lighting was perfect" That's just like him...


This is some random picture of me at school. Apparently I made "Most Innocent" at school... strange.



This was out road trip to Italy for school. I got to sit with Nathan on the trip. We both fell asleep obviously... I think Amanda took the picture. Last I know, Nathan was some of the people that made it to The Protection Center.... I hope he's doing well. Let's just hope he'll see me and Cody again.



Me and my friends at a rock concert after party in Russia. I don't really know what happened to them. Apparently they died on a plane headed for The protection center and Infected invaded the flight.




I was at school-- obviously. Nathan took this picture and was wondering why I looked like that. I don't remember but I know I had a headache.. it was like a black out.